Mely

miss it...

2003-12-15T05:25:38Z

I just read the Valentine's note he gave me last year. Man, I really miss it...it's so different we fight so much. We haven't fought today, thank God but we always do. I love him it's changed, alot. He doesn't realize it but I do. It's changed and it sucks..I miss it.

What a night...

2003-12-05T06:57:39Z

Problem #1: well, two of my good friends were fighting over the pettiest thing and it really made me upset. Before it turned to something huge I told them to resolve their problem by talking about it and seeing how petty it is. Well of course they didnt solve anything and they talk shit behind each others backs. It was about how early and late these two friends were going to go to bed and bla bla bla...its ridiculous and nothing to lose your friendship over. Once I begin to think about how good I have it here and all the great people I have met it all turns horrible!
Problem #2:Jon and I got into this really huge fight, the biggest ever. I just dont understand us anymore... me or him, the beautiful relationship we used to have is a pile of dirt. I really don't understand. So many people talk shit in this place that it makes me literally sick to my stomach, people are fake and rude and I can't STAND sororities. I don't know how people go from being friends one minute and enemies the next, its a sick and twisted world and I hate being a part of it. I wish this world was like a second heaven and everything was beautiful, but the reality of it is it's not it's more like hell, a really BAD hell! Well another comment I would like to make is that people flirt to much (no names mentioned) but yea, they do and it's kind of fucked up...I guess the only thing I can say is that although I can't be there 24/7 watching people I know one person who always is, God! He knows everything, so when you think no one is watching, HE is!

changes

2003-11-03T00:54:50Z

I feel as if I am not as important in his life as I once was. There's this girl and I feel as if he likes her and vice versa,He had a very perverted dream with her in it... I dunno why but I get these feelings inside of me that tell me something is going on. He defends people before me all the time and I love him so much. I would never do that to him...this girl is in his Government class and I can't stand it, he doesnt realize she likes him. I saw the way she looked at him at the show and he told me about something she said and it's obvious. I feel like sometimes we should break up and not have this worry on my mind. Its killing me, it's different, it's CHANGED! I don't know what to do and it kills me to think about breaking up but It really might be the best...considering we fight all the time is horrible. He hurts me sometimes and not just emotionally... I love him.

Funny crap..

2003-10-26T18:44:01Z

Ready for this...Ok so like Jon got this tour thing going for him... Thats great and I am happy for him but this is what went down...his asshole of a roomate, Greg... stated "Jon, when you get laid send me a postcard"... in front of Jon's g/f (Me) How fucked up and disrespectful can you possibly get!!!! Yea, well considering I go over to Jon's dorm once a week and clean after them and if you guys only know how DISGUSTING it is you would understand...actually christy has it on tape lol (dirty panties) yucky lol...anyways, so yea I didn't do anything wrong and now Greg is telling Jon I am not allowed over there! Ready for the funniest thing, Greg always said how much he hated drama... and when he gets mad it's only for a little while BULLSHIT!!!!!! I think its funny how people say shit like that and contradict themselves! Whatever, I was upset and I need people's opinion on this Journal because If I am overreacting I would love to know. I think it was uncalled for, disrespectful,dick headed like overall FUCKED UP!!! I can't go to my boyfriends dorm and I did absolutely nothing!! Well, I'm done. I am glad I got this out and now I need ur input....check back with ya'll later! xoxo

Want more...

2003-10-15T00:31:19Z

Ok Well, Here we go. I graduated High School and Jon and I said we were going to go into the Coast Guard and Well, obviously it never happened...It was too much for what its worth I guess!...Anyways, I am now at FAU!! Staying on Campus and loving it, despite the fact that I have had some bumpy roads a long the way, but hey.. it's the real world! I am learning something new everyday and I have lost a roomate because she went back to New York! She was a very, how can I say this...Dramatic person :-o So yea, but on the positive side...I have met some amazing people..Johanna, Angela, Annie, Michelle,Lovely, Terricita <- Those are my girls! And than for guys, well I can't really meet a lot because Jon will get mad at me but I can talk about John(Jon's suitemate), Ryan, Kevin,Wale,Mike,Gustavo and can't forget about Greg (Jon's hott; drunkie roomate) lol. So as for that, it does not conclude my list I have met a lot of amazing people and the college is very diverse and I love it!
As for my classes, uh oh! Pre-med is hard, Duh it would be!! So yeah, as for Chemistry ( I hate it with a passion) and I am more than likely withdrawing from it, I mean it will hurt me so bad if I fail it! So, yes...Chem is difficult! And I am dropping it, Now...my parents are being so hard on me, actually not so much my parents but more my stepmom, she is like killing me! Ugh, she is so strict and tells my dad what to do and all this stuff. I really can't deal with this and all the stress I have. College is very stressful, especially with your stepmom bugging you all the frekin time!!
Well, I think I am going to take some Yoga classes next semester so I won't be stressed out all the time. It's a good idea right? Yea, I thought so...Well...I will write mor later, but I have to go write like 2 essays! Ahhhh! Toodles ~Mely

College

2003-10-14T20:27:23Z

It's been a really long time since I have been on here! About hmm.. I'll say, 5 months or so! Well, Jon and I are almost a year and I go to FAU now! A lot of Shyt has happened and well I am really tired and can't write a lot right now I will write a lot more later, beleive me I get bored! I just have Chem Lab in and hour and gotta study for it!...Yes, study for lab, i know its gay! be back later...

long time...

2003-05-19T15:13:09Z

Well, it has been a long time since I've been on, but I have been verrrry busy! I knew this month was going to be so busy! let's see....
Grad Bash was soooooooooooooooo much fun! omg, it was amazing, I didn't think it would be that much fun, but it defintly was! Well after Grad Bash was of course my 18th Birthday! woo-hoo! lol...although I'm legally allowed to do whatever I want, I can't. My parents still swear I'm 17 or younger! Oh well, My prom is coming up this friday too! I really can't wait I'm going to have so much fun at that! Finally, it all ends on May 30th with my SGA trip...we are all going to Bush Gardens! The only bad thing, Jon can't come with me :-( *Sniff* Well, that's about it, I will really try to write more often because I should. :-) toodles, till next time~ Mely

long time... (money and love)

2003-04-30T01:45:16Z

Well, long time no write lol...Well, on serious terms my life has been busy the past week or so... with money , boyfriend, friend and family problems, I have a little bit of anything! Well, I hope that everything turns out for the best because I can't take the way my life is going.
Jon and I have been fighting more than ever and he is working literally 24/7, if it's not Walden Books it's Denny's...I honestly understand that he needs money, I do! But we all need money, and you can buy seriously everything with money...except for one thing...Love! I haven't gotten much ofit lately, I know he buys me things and takes care of me...financially, but I miss our old days that we use to spend together and talking on the phone forever, I'm sad and depressed at times thinking about it...he's only 18, not 30! He is just beggining his life, he doesn't need this stress...and then we ask the question...why do bad things happen to good people?

mumujuju1027 @ 2003-04-17T23:57:00

2003-04-18T04:00:58Z

I am so confused. What do you do when the person you love and want to be with for the rest of your life likes to speed and doesn't listen to you when you tell them to slow down?
~ I'm clueless, anything will help...I love Jon but he never ever listens, he's stubborn but I love him and afraid something will happen to him If he doesn't stop this "road rage"!

My weekend!

2003-04-14T04:56:35Z

Well, it's Sunday night, very early monday morning and I just couldn't go to bed without writing about how good my weekend was! I was with Jon Fri., Sat. and Sun. and I had so much fun! Friday we went to the mall with Mike and hung out at his house all night, Sat. he "suprised" me with a picnic and we went in the pool and than he really suprised me later on with chinese food.. of course we did have a little fight but it was nothing, I expected us to have one lol. Anyways, tonight I got to see him and we went to the movies.We pretty much hung out at his house most of the weekend but it was sooooooooooooo much fun... Well, thats about it and some little details here and there that are left out of my Journal ;-). You guys wouldn't want to know though anyways- toodles!
~Mely
I love my JuJu~ He makes my life all better!

Favors...

2003-04-11T13:51:46Z

Well...today hasn't been going well. I came to school and I only came for something that I didn't even get thanked for... long story. You know I'm sick of getting taken advantage of and it's because of how nice I am to people so you know what from now on if people ask me to do them a favor as much as I am going to feel bad, I will say no!
I mean I am so sick of it, I have to deal with this like everyday of my life (people stepping all over me) and I'm done! Well, I am going home soon because I have to leave this school! Plus Jon decided to not come to school because he has another "tummy ache" wow... what a coincidence... nevermind I'm not even going to go there... that's it...I'm out!
less than 2 months left till graduation I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!

A lesson to learn...

2003-04-10T01:47:34Z

Well Boys and Girls... a little something for you to know, make sure your boyfriend/girlfriend has the number 1 thing needed in a relationship, TRUST!!!!
Well, I'm done with that. Anyways, My day was pretty good until the end of it and now it hasn't cleared up either. I'm upset about a lot of things and I don't know what to do, I guess it's just the time changing thing has me cranky, plus the "time of the month" thng and the fact that I HAVE BEEN SO OVERWHELMED WITH SO MANY THINGS LATELY!
Well, it's only wednesday, I'm glad I am going to Miami this weekend only because once again I need to get away from Coral Springs and I need a BIG DARK TAN! lol after all I'm Cuban and I NEED TO BE DARK!!! alrighty, I will only hope my week gets better, I'll be praying :-) pray for me 2! :-)
** JuJu, Don't worry you can trust me in Miami 150%! I promise! I love you and I would never do anything to mess our relationship up, ANYTHING!
XOXO

the worst day...

2003-04-09T04:10:37Z

Wow... this was the worst night!!! Nothing went right for me and you know whats funny I always get blamed for everything. I am like the nicest person and I always help people out with their problems but its funny how I can't help my own problems. I mean you think you know everything and if for any reason you have any problems you can solve them... well not in this situation!!!! Ughhh!!!! I am so mad and frustrated Notice: I always write in here when I am mad! oh lordy...why me?!?!? I didn't do anything and I am so frustrated, I'm crying and I am soooo upset and sad...
***What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?***

Sad Mely

WOW!!! what a boring night.

2003-04-06T02:36:34Z

By far this has for sure been the most boring night of my life! Wow, I can't imagine being this bored... I am really sick, I stayed home alone all day and night and Jon went into work at 4pm until 4am!!!! I didn't even get to see him today.
Doesn't get anymore boring then this! :-)

sick

2003-04-05T02:03:04Z

well today was another day... not exactly a good day though. It seems like alot was going wrong and I'm so sick too! I hate being sick and it's Jon's fault, he got me sick! anyways...I'm going to go now because I am a little upset and sleepy...

...homework!

2003-03-25T03:58:40Z

I'm here at home on the comp. (obviously) bored out of my mind because I should be doing homework and I have soooo much because the qtr. end soon and I am just a big procrastinator! (ohhhh big word!) lol anyways, I hope I finish all my work for the qtr. and do well in my classes. Pray for me!!! Hey b.t.w Jon and I are fine again, he's truly an amazing person guys!!!!! I consider myself the luckiest woman in the universe!!!
-Mely

I LOVE MY JUJU!!!

43 more days until graduation!!!! C/O 2003 Rules!!!

another day in the life of Melissa...

2003-03-21T06:09:24Z

Hey Well I haven't written in a while but believe me a lot has been going on and i tend to get busy between all of it. Between drama at school and some disagreements between Jon and I and Procrastination, my life is a busy one! This week has taught me a lot of things, such as learning who to trust, who are true friends, who will always be there for me and so on... and in the end I believe that there is one thing that will always keep me all together, it's my boyfriend and most importantly my best friend who i have known for 3 years. He and I have always had an amazing friendship but now it's an even more amazing relationship. Jon and I have to listen to people telling us " how sick we make them?" I take it as them being Jealous lol...and than they admit to being jealous because our relationship is great! I don't think I have ever met anyone quite like my JuJu and I know that 50 years from now when Jon and I are married with our kids this "teen" love will never fade and Jon will still be his immature, sense of humor self and I will always be the Melissa who tells him to "Stop Jon, your so immature...grow up" but deep down inside he won't grow up and neither will I. You see Jon has made an impact on my life, something that will never change, he has taught me to be positive, have amazing self esteem and given me all his love and I know that whenever I am done, and have had a bad day, week or whatever it may be I can Just think of Jon and it will all dissapear... I love you Jonathan Ware!

Bored...doing my homework...

2003-03-13T00:23:06Z

Well, I'm at home and I am trying to study for my Anatomy test but i'm really bored and Jon's at work now so I can't call him or anything! I'm going to go see if I can do some other HW not involving Anatomy and Physiology!
-Mely

Jon-

2003-03-12T16:38:42Z

Well, I joined this live journal thing because Jon suggested it so lets see how it goes and how much time I actually have to write in it lol Anyways... I guess I'll write later
-Mely

JON AND MEL
10-27-03